Wow...the school year has come and gone and I've MIA. I wish I could blame my absence on something concrete or cosmically spectacular. But perhaps that is exactly what has been keeping me away. Strangely enough I've done alot of searching for something concrete or cosmically spectacular...or just something. I discovered at the end of summer I was tired of being restless and static. So I took a leap and decided to go back to work. And as the opportunity presented itself, I nearly recoiled...afraid. Afraid of what exactly, I was unsure. Perhaps it was the time I might lose or maybe it was just my persistent insecurities. And there have been days since taking on the responsibility that I have been terrified. But the school year has ended and it seems like everything has worked out. The last several months have been revealing in a complicated way. And that's putting it mildly. I've found my concrete & spectacular and it's in the same place. I have finally become accustomed with the idea of me. It's not a me that I expected. It's not always pretty or kind. And I'm not talking in a physical sense. I'm ragged and sun faded, more like a sail that's seen more days of bad weather than good. But in the same turn.. I'm steadfast. Unwavering. I've withstood the storm and come out clean on the other side. And it's okay. I have found who I am and it's a good thing.
WHA???
11 years ago
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